Saturday, August 27, 2005

rainy season


"Uyab na mi pero dili pa official." Then it rained until it poured. I closed my eyes, grabbed my blanket and hoped sleep will come to me soon but my mind wandered into an abyss. Memories are more haunting as I expect them to be. Then suddenly all songs sounded lamenting even Nirvana. (But if Slipknot or Mudvayne started to sound sad, I better pack up, go and check myself in a psychiatric ward.)

Yes, it hurt terribly but I was getting used to it for the past couple of years. I'm not furious nor am I disappointed. I never planned to retaliate as what most people would do (I presume). I'm sad - no more, no less. I welcomed it when it came knocking on my door. And so shall I let go of it when it wanted to depart. It has never been mine anyway.

It is hard framing a smile on my face when all I want is to be left alone and be miserable. Harder still is that people expect me to act as the usual bastard that I am but never a miserable one, and can't be taken seriously once I started to feel and act as one.

It has been a week now and I survived. My guess is I will survive this for the next few weeks and then for the next few months. Until it will hurt no more.

P.S.
Never in my history of existence did a girl dumped me. (Except Rubylyn, the courtship was as pretentious as GMA's public apology.) It has always been the other way around. I don't know if this one counts. It probably wouldn't. Nobody can dump you if there has never been You all along.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

no shit!

I am feeling shitty today, figuratively and literally. 4 consecutive days of pigging out has now started to claim its prize. The Camotes adventure last Saturday and Sunday - where all 7 of us have to eat the food for 12 people. Fabs and Elline's wedding last Monday - where the food just overflows. Then yesterday was my nephew's birthday. I'm surely going to hell with all those foods I overly consumed - but with gusto, of course.

I woke up at around 1:30am today and sprinted my way to the bathroom. Here goes my punishment. Yes, it was a watery loosened bowel. Doesn't the English dictionary have a single term for this? Diarrhea sounds too professional. Something like "igit" in Bisaya. I'll just call it whit, short for wet shit. (No offense to Webster, Oxford and Miriam. This is my blog and there's nothing you can do about it.) I was about to go out of the bathroom but before I can reach the door handle, I can feel the gush of whit urging for an immediate release. I was frantically taking off my shorts and briefs. Before my buns can reach the rim of the bowl, there goes whit streaming like water in a fireman's hose. When I went back to bed, I have a bad feeling I will repeat this performance in a short while. Indeed, I woke up at around 4:30am and did the same thing.

It was around 8:30am, when I finished taking my bath. I'm planning to be here in the office on or before 9:00am. I left the room at around 8:45am, opened the front gate and took about 5 steps when I felt like farting. But it wasn't just a fart. Yes, it was whit! I started to sweat and headed back to my room. I can feel that it went all the way to my briefs. I was trying to be very careful on my walking because I don't want it to ever touch my trousers (Heaven, forbid!). So I looked like a zoombie walking without bending my knee and I still have to climb a few steps. I took off my pants and briefs when I went inside my room and confirmed my hypothesis. If it hadn't been one of my favorite briefs, I would've thrown it away. So, in the corner of my room lays a "soiled" pair of briefs. (I need to wash it this evening.)

Right now, I'm so exhausted and still praying it won't ever happen inside the office.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

a stag party, camotes and a wedding

4 days went by and I felt like a whole month passed through me. A lot of things happened. Let me recount it as best as I can. Last Friday evening was Fabs' stag party. Saturday early morning, I was riding a pump boat going to Camotes (at last!). Monday afternoon was Fabs and Elline's wedding.

The stag party last Friday was, well, nice. It would've been superb if the 3 attractive hookers contacted earlier by the organizers were pre-informed that they will be lap-pet-fondle dancing the groom. Damn that money-hungry pimp who did not mention anything about what his girls should do. 11pm and nothing happened. Everybody started to get agitated. The girls were confronted. But they only said they don't like dancing. They're only there for the fucking. "Kayat ra man amo. Dili mi anang sayaw-sayaw." People got frustrated. They won't agree if all 15 of us fuck them one by one. It would be unfair if only 3 of us fuck them. Damn. I paid 400 pesos for the show. The girls are paid 5,000 pesos. I felt wasted for that one girl who has this really nice pair of boobs and round body. Yum. Yum. I get a boner imagining her and me in that bed all night long. Whew!

They were sent back to the casa. Fortunately, we got a refund of 3,500 pesos. They went straight to Little Mermaid to pick Yan, the dancer at Roy's stag party, and another dancer. It was 2am when the dancers arrived at the motel. The show immeidately started. The 2nd dancer was good. She surely knew how to do her thing. Although most of the dancing happened on Fabs' lap, groin, face and *toot*, she made a round to each and everyone of us. She's a hot girl, I tell you. When she came to me on the bed, I swear I could fuck her right there and then. I was so goddamn horny. I haven't relieved myself for quite some time. But she immediately let go of my grasp when I started to grope her breast. I was thinking of telling her that I am willing to pay extra charges but the other guys were anxiously waiting for their turn. So I let her go. *sigh*

At 3am, I went home. I had a scheduled trip to Camotes at 6 in the morning. I needed to pack and help Norman carry the tent and the speakers. There were supposed to be 12 of us but only 7 made it. 3 guys and 4 ladies - 2 are maried :'(

The weather wasn' that cooperative. I was constantly interrupted with my much needed sleep by the sea waves splashing to my face. We arrived at Mangudlong Beach Resort at 9am and by that time the sun started to shine. The place is really nice. The whole afternoon passed and all we could do was dance, booze and swim with a whole lot of laughing. People started to get crazy.

One of the married ladies was Anne. She's not really my type but I could sense she liked me. While dancing we did a little smacking here and there.

After dinner, boozing continued inside the room. We were halfway on our 2nd liter of vodka and the ladies started to strip dance. (Not all the way though. Only the tops came out, excluding the bra. Darn!) I was about to go inside the rest room to pee when the 2 single ladies followed me. I was drunk and before I could restrain myself (1 of those ladies is a very close friend), I got a candy and told them that we're going to pass it among the 3 of us without the use of our hands. (It's actually a little trick I used to play with my ex-girlfriend and her friend to engage in a threesome, and even a foursome during the second time!) It's sort of kissing them with "indirect" intention. Due to heavy alcohol intake, they played along. But they're not drunk enough to go all the way.

I have no idea what time we went to bed. Marie was showing her tantrums. We had to ease her because the occupants in the other room were comlaining. I slept beside Anne. We covered ourselves with a blanket so others won't see us smacking and french kissing and doing all those things. I'm too drunk to remember what actually happened. Maybe I fell asleep while all those tongue-fighting and saliva-swapping going on. I remember that cruel horoscope that says Virgo people sleep while fucking.

I was being a glutton yesterday in Fabs and Elline's brithday..., err wedding, I mean (I hate stupid keyboards.). And still the food was overflowing. I could no longer take one single food, not even water. My stomach felt like it's going to blow anytime. I should tell this to a priest.


Wednesday, August 03, 2005

java games

For reasons beyond my comprehension, I was playing a java game on my cellphone (Ancient Empire by MacroMedia) like it would be my last. I slept at around 4am this morning. I really don't know what came into me. This game has been in my cellphone for almost a year now and I have played it a dozen times already. But yesterday the game was just so overpoweringly irresistible. It's like being hypnotized by Enchantress (Asgardian creature i.e. Thor, Loki, Odin) and made to forget everything. Or to put it simply, it's like being invited to have sex with Angelina Jolie.

A day before yesterday, I ended up sleeping at around 2am because of Q*Bert, a Java game (again) from my Tiya's SE T610 cellphone.

It must be the cold weather that turned me into "this". I need to get laid this week.